5/8

Well, it's been quite a while since I've blogged. It does make sense since I'm pretty busy. I've been officially divorced since April, been babysitting my unsaved friend's kids, attending Foundation bible study at Grace Community on Friday nights, going to Grace Baptist Saturday nights, then back to Grace Community Sunday morning. The Lord has given me a '99 Toyota Camry and is using me as a light to my unsaved friend. He is using me for the single girls at church to not only be a testimony for the Savior but to also warn them of deceiving relationships, which are not pleasing to Him.

I cannot describe how thankful I am to Jesus for where I currently am. Though my plan is to go to school next year, He has me in a place which I've longed to be in: church involvement. What a blessing it is to build relationships and to serve Christ.

At home, I admit, it's not easy. Having so much responsibility on my shoulders can overwhelm me sometimes as I see myself become an angry person in situations. I get tired of the constant fighting, whining, and crying of the girls. I want to pull my hair out. I say this only to be honest. I have to remind myself that they are little sinners, it's the age they are at, and that God is using this to grow me. I tend to go throughout the day thinking, "It's all on me, you can do this." But it's when I forget that God is along side me is when I fail. I wouldn't be overwhelmed if I reminded myself of His presence. I do know that the first year of any single mother's life is the hardest and that my girls have been through a lot as well. We will survive. ;)