11/28

I've ended up staying with my sister. I'm really praying where God will have me stay permanently. Getting a job is a definite for me down the road. It breaks my heart at the thought of leaving my kids in a daycare center but that looks like what will be happening.

The longer I live in a peaceful environment the more I see my girls doing better. They literally lived in a nightmare their entire lives so I know they are internally dealing with a lot. But God is good and He is going to get up through this. I couldn't imagine what I would do without Him.

11/06

Yesterday I went to court and God was completely on my side. No matter how many accusations my husband made against me he was still forced to go to AA and have therapy to face his "past demons." I totally didn't expect him to get so "slapped" but God was definitely fighting for me.

I now have an attorney and was informed that the divorce won't be finalized until March.

My kids are taking everything in an okay manner. Trudi does fight a lot with me, which I don't allow to go unnoticed, and Heidi is surprisingly pretty fine.

Some of you may be wondering how I am feeling. I feel sad that all of this is happening but very relieved at the same time how much God is fighting for me as well as providing. I really don't hurt over my marriage. Do I want to get remarried? Absolutely, and I am praying that God will provide a godly man to help me raise these girls. I know God's timing is perfect. Right now I rest in the trust that I have in God that He has planned out all my days. Right now He has me exactly where He wants me to be.

Thank you God for your provision.